Something- Not quite good enough

I have this Huge Massive Problem- Well, at least I think I do.
What’s bothering Me?
I think I know what’s bothering me.
Me.
I’m bothering Me.

I’m simply not good enough
But What’s good enough?
I Was Never good enough
And I’ll Never be good enough

I know that.

Funny thing really- When I finally sit down and think about it; I’m not quite sure how I want Me to be Me. Sometimes, I want to be taller. Sometimes I’m contented. Then I’d want to be plumper, but sometimes I’d feel I’m Fat- then I’d want to lose weight. And before I lose a few pounds- I’d feel I’m too skinny and I’d want to gain some kilos. Then when I finally get down to eating- I’d feel appalling and gigantic. Then the cycle repeats itself. Sometimes I feel Proud of myself- That’d I’m just fine the way I am. But moments later, I’d feel- Not good enough. And worst, is when I feel utterly dreadful; as though I’m a revolting skinny stick-insect around- or perhaps a hideous stout Green Troll. You question me- Why don’t you try out a relationship? Well, I’ll tell you why Missy-
I’m simply not good enough
But What’s good enough?
I Was Never good enough
And I’ll Never be good enough
Does that answer your question?- No? Well, I’d just have to go on saying that I haven’t found the right one- That I’m too young – That Singlehood and No Dating is the Best- That I’ve no time
Which are all actually pretty darn true.
Still. You tell me- Florence, you’re so Lucky.
Lucky? Lucky? You tell me I’m lucky? Yes. I am. Very lucky in fact. To have awesome friends and a Caring family. But I’m not lucky- To have Me as Me. What on earth is wrong with me? Why am I bothering to express how I really feel- Behind all the jokes and Never-Ending Chit-Chats. I’m sure many of You Missies feel the same way as I do. That Your simply not good enough.
But what’s good enough?
You were never good enough
And you’ll never be.

Finally.A Post.